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Now for something a little more solemn...

I finally attended Tax tutorial! And got to speak heart to heart with Dear Ms Brenda Lee (its Miss but she's married actually).

That's what got it all going.

I've been thinking for a month.

But i guess all of which is redundant.

Because what i should be thinking is...

What the fuck is it that i really want in my life.

Will it be to do something to satisfy the people around me?

Or selfishly do what i want without the regards of those concerned parties.

But is what i want, really what i want, and really right to be what i want?

Isit realistic? Isit practical?

Money Money, Money can't buy everything.

But without it, I can't buy my favourite lappy, my favourite book, my favrouite games, my favourite clothings, my favourite bag, my favourite DVDs, my favourite car...and the list goes on.

Am i willing to risk all those of the above for what i call...my ambition?

Ms Brenda told, and asked me in a very simple statement. "I have dreams. We all have dreams. But don't you think that sometimes, what you do is not only about you. Don't you think that sometimes, maybe we should do something to satisfy the concerned parties before we set out to do what we want."

My parents thinks i'm good. My teachers thinks I'm good. My closer friends feels that I'm good, albeit spacing out alot recently, being blur at times, being over-confident when i start doing well. Therefore, i felt that, if i do what i want, I'll have no problems in doing it well too. But....

I'm turning 19 soon. I can't act like this anymore. I cannot go on doing things on impulse. I can't expect to get what i want all the time anymore. For 18 years of her life, i have done nothing but give my mum constant worries.

I'm giving my classmates in school alot of worries too. I can feel the distance drawing larger. When i think about what i want, I'm not thinking about them. I'm being selfish.

Well maybe just maybe.

I know the answer already.

Hehe.

Full Stop.

FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK!

FUCK THE BUS SERVICE

FUCK THE TAXI SERVICE

FUCK THE TEACHER

FUCK MY LUCK

FUCK THE WEATHER

FUCK THE PEOPLE

FUCK YOU

FUCK ME

FUCK OFF

FUCK IT FUCK IT FUCK IT

KNNCCB. I HAVEN FELT SO FUCKED FOR SO LONG.

FUCK LA FUCK LA FUCK LA

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Sorry Dad i slammed my laptop in front of u and vented it out on you.

I'm sorry.

But right now, im fucked up.

I've ran out of ideas of what to post on so....

Nah! Courtesy of. SELF-PROCLAIMED GOD (pui.)

100 truths
Share with upmost integrity!

100 Truths.

After you've filled this out, tag 15 people and have them do the same.


Last beverage → Pearl Milk Tea w/o Pearl.
Last phone call → Wrong number.
Last instant message → Yun Hao.
Last song you listened to → Escape!
Last time you cried → I don't remember...When i was 5?


HAVE YOU EVER:
Dated someone twice → of course la. Wth? Need ask meh?
Been cheated on → I don't think so. If there is a cheat, i am. HAHA.
Kissed someone & regretted it → I think so...
Lost someone special→ ehhh...NOPE!


IN THE PAST MONTH HAVE YOU:
Fallen out of love → Neh. =)
Laughed until you cried → Definately not.
Met someone who changed your life → Oh. R21 artists changed my life...BWAHAHAHAHA.
Found out someone was talking about you → i think so.
Have you kissed anyone on your top friends? → Huh?
How many ppl on your top friends do you know in real life? → HUHHHHH???
How many kids do you want to have → 你敢生我敢要。

Do you have any pets → all killed by me. =(
Do you want to change your name → Maybe...worth considering. My "real name" sux.
What time did you wake up today → 10pm. =)
What were you doing at midnight last night → Wanking Er trying out my newly installed Fifa 09 when i realised my lappy is so noob.
Name something you CANNOT wait for → Something else.
Last time you saw your father→ ...Y ask such a stupid thing man.
What's one thing you wish you could change → MY HEIGHT!!!! [sry dion. =)]
Have you ever talked to a person named Tom → I spoke to Jerry.
What's getting on your nerves right now → The weather.
What's your real name → Justin Time.(Foo Shi Jun Justin)
Zodiac sign → Sheep. Goat.
Elementary/primary School → Bukit Panjang.
High School → Bukit Panjang.
Hair color → Black.
Long or short → Er. Short? I think. (NOOO! WAIT! LONG. LOOONNGGGG!)
Are you a health freak → It depends. really.
Righty or lefty → Both.


FIRSTS:
First surgery → Primary 1. Eyes.
First piercing → None.
First best friend → Er. Ziyang. His in Ngee Ann poly now.
First sport you joined → Badminton.
First pet → Guppy Fish. =)....All died within hours....
First vacation → Australia, Surfer's Paradise
First crush → Secondary 2 puppy love. Ah see. I DARE to admit ah. HEHEHEHE.

CURRENTLY :
Eating → Chips Ahoy!
Drinking → H20. No, its not the isotonic drink.
Waiting → for you too. =)

YOUR FUTURE :

Want kids? → DUN MAKE ME REPEAT MY WORDS F*****!
Want to get married?→ Let nature take its course. haha
Careers in mind? → Yea. And its quite obvious rite?

HAVE YOU EVER:
Kissed a stranger → hell you. Where's ur decency?
Drank hard liquor → NO. HATE LIQUOR.
Lost glasses/contacts → NO.
Ran away from home → YES. A few times to be honest.
Broken someone's heart → think so.
Been arrested → Nope. I'm a good boy. Don't you know?
Turned someone down → yea. I'm daoster.
Cried when someone died → No. I'm really heartless. Serious.
DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
Yourself → YES. WHO else?
Miracles → Yes.
Love at first sight → YES.
Heaven → Definately NOT!
Santa Claus → You're joking rite?
Kiss on the first date → WOW!I Love to. =)=)=)=)=)=)
Angels → ...go away.

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY :
Is there one person you want to be with right now? → No.
Had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at one time → Yes.
Do you believe in God? → I don't believe in Huimin. BWAHAHAHAHA.
Is this questionnaire a waste of time? → Its a waste of time. But it helped me burn some time. =)

Tag:
Eh. Pls la. U ba jiu da stamp? Cant see Uncle busy? Self service can? You this kinda fella ah, very de jialat ah.

KOPI JI BUEI!



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Bah.

I'm 200% confident that im so gona flunk this exam. YIPPPEEEE!

I've been busy during the study week and exam week. Not because i was studying.

But because i cant stop hoggling those games and movies. (wtf is hoggling? Ah if you know me well enuff, you will realise i like to invent words although some ppl argue that its an excuse....)

Ah. I've been keeping an EXTREMELY LOW profile ever since the family concert, which is like...since December last year.

My piano is consistently collecting MORE dust.

My table is becoming a "beautiful" work of art.

My handphone is ignored 90% of the time.

I rarely step more than 500m away from home.

But hey. I love this exam period. Sometimes, i call it...the Sleep mode. So right now, im undergoing transition into awake mood, and hopefully by June, I will be in HIGH mood as the Virtuoso is around that time. hee. (oh sorry to disappoint you GUYS. I'm not undergoing the menstrual cycle, unfortunately. HAHA.)

Yea. During this transition. DON'T YOU FUCKING EVER CALL ME OUT FOR WADEVA GAY REASONS! BUT SOCCER GANG, FUCKING CALL ME OUT! I WANT SOCCER. I.W.A.N.T I.W.A.N.T!

everyone else...just f*** off. Leave me alone. Oh but Yh special case. He is my mentor, so must give respect. =)

(wah wah wah. Dua pai liao la. Call u out must see ur face la)

YES!

Anw. I love sleep mode as. I'm HAPPIEST in this state. I do what i like all i want. I can sleep 48 hours for who's business. Haha. But it gets boring after some time. So thats where i will reach Awake mood.

Wait. that has nothing erotic. =)

Ah i love Jessica Liu so much in that engineering drama. SO PRETTY!!!! (shut up la horny bastards. I just idolize her la. Pls stop thinking towards the R21 side! RESPECT!)

And i realised that when i mention not to...it was me a along, at the R21 side...

LOL. Just joking for entertainment purposes. HAHAHAHAHA.

Haha.ha.ha. not funny.

Anw, im losing interest in strings. How?
Maybe i will leave after the virtuoso...
hmm.


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Ah 60 cent ah, 60 cent. Ah what? Huh? Uncle just now never answer 100 question with integrity? Walao eh. You bo nao ah? Integrity can tan jia ah? Integrity jiu xi more time think also. I answer one integrity question, I can sell one more kopi. I answer all ur questions, i can sell alot alot of kopi! Like that, I very LUGI!

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すばらしい　いい　感じ　だな。

Note: Post is 85% nonsensical. 15% true.
Most probably going postless till april.

And so why do i post in Jap these days? Because Jap class is over. Because i do not use jap in my daily routine. Because if one doesnt exercise a language, his gona lose it. Because practice makes perfect.

And oh no. I'm not obsessed with Erika. It's been ages since i last watched her shows or read anything about her. Coincidentally, i read about her being married. And so there you go.

But that 44 year old MONKEY actually succeeded in marrying her...bleh. LOL. That's like. EXACTLY TWICE HER AGE. Must be the money. Must be the money. LOL.

See ya mates.　

OFF TO STUDY!!!!! ROAARRRRR

2009 is turning out to be a very good start for me.

Thursday's practice was really fun. My time in NPS is improving by the weeks. Had loads of fun crapping around with Shar and company.

And Poop! Dinner and Crapping at KAP Mac. We even chatted about O' levels history. LOL.

Here's a little pic.



~いまの活　が　大好き
友達　が　大好き
お宅　が　大好き
音楽　が　大好き
とても　嬉しい
過去のもの　憶えて　です　が
哀しいの事　も　忘れる
これから、　私　は　絶対　がんばります
Probably the best days of my life,
Revolves on the stage,
And in the classrooms
Savouring every moment i still can～

But homework and tests sucks to the core!